Playing With My Head and My Heart

April 10, 2007

How does it work? Love.... Have I ever really loved anyone? Am I infatuated with you? I dont even know what to think sometimes. He plays with my head when he leaves me hanging for days and then all the sudden wants me to be there when he needs me. He called me 3 times when I was in a meeting, maybe for fear I was ignoring him now, maybe because he really wanted to talk. Who knows? It seems as though things between us are a little roller coaster. (Kind of the way I view life as well). Some days its like we're going up and we are at a huge peak and all the sudden our friendship as well as relationship is plummeting deep until finally it levels off and we start going up again, but never as high as the first peak. The sad thing is, its only been a couple weeks since we really started talking. Does that mean we moved too fast... Other than all of this I guess all that is going on is my roommate still working on finding another place to live. I have so many great ideas of what I want to do with the place when she moves. Is it bad that I'm already planning?