The Weeks Before

April 27, 2007

Things that may have led up to my treatment... 1. Gamma Phi Initiation and me not knowing 2. The season- seems like I was depressed this time last year 3. The time of semestser- seems like this time of semester gets kinda stressful with papers and presentations 4. Dan- and his girlfriend, or not really (who really knows) 5. Virginia Tech shootings 6. Financial bank overdrawl 7. Financial paying creditors 8. Working alll the time 9. Wrong time of the month and emotions flying 10. Fighting with my mother It seems like things just added up on me and thats why I got stressed out and felt depressed. I guess I could say I felt suicidal but I dont really think I would have acted on it. Its like Kim said when I was in treatment. "Everyone has the ability to do certain things its just that we dont know which people will and wont act on those abilities". Its so true. I guess in the state of mind I was in I didnt know if I would act on my abilities either. I was just depressed.