Relief

May 25, 2007

The events of tonight numb me with a pain I have never felt. I've never had to pry a knife out of the hand of a friend I hold dear to my heart. Seeing someone in so much hurt that they want to hurt themselves in front of others makes me sick. I have always been depressed but still with enough respect and discipline to those around me to hurt myself in private. I yearn for a friend like she has, someone that will just be there for me when I begin to feel so depressed and hurt. Someone that will hold me and tell me everything is ok without judging and making sure that I will be ok. Tonight I feel blessed to see the world through eyes that I dont feel are my own. I see the pain in anothers heart and hope to fix that pain. I am scared for her and yet I know that I am ok. Tonight I am alright, I am shocked to see such pain in others, yet relieved that it is not my own.