Superstitious Texting
January 29, 2008
I've always been the superstitous type... I've always believed in fate. I have always lived my life just going day to day, sometimes I think I know what I want and I say that but honestly... I believe that what is supposed to happen to me will.. in time. Now, I used to get these horoscope text messages on my phone from Cosmopolitan Magazine (Perhaps the best ever magazine). I stopped the service because at the time I was texting a lot and wanted to have the texts for other people. Keep in mind: These texts always came on Tuesday and Thursday. After about 2 months of canceling my text messages from Cosmo I got a random message. 12/26: Wednesday-
"Staying silent is the best bet when caught in an awkward situation. If you say too much, you'll regret it."
The next day I was on my back to Kearney and called Radioshack to find out what time I needed to be there on friday (12/27). As a sidenote: I had been working there since the middle of July. When I called my boss, Rob, he told me to stop by and he had to talk to me. Of course this couldnt be good, but I knew it was coming. A few weeks before I had been told by one of my good guy friends, who also worked with me, that Rob was going to be getting rid of a few part timers and my name had been mentioned. Of course being my friends Justin and Andy tried to convince rob to keep me on. Unfortunately my great sales and good productivity on the floor wasnt enough to detour rob from the fact that I'm a woman. When I went in Rob told me that friday (the next day) would be my last day. He told me I didnt have to come in and work if I didnt want to, but I went. I kept this text in mind and made my exit from Radioshack one to be shined upon. I was graceful and did not make a scene. As a matter of fact, the only ones that knew that was my last day was the managers and andy, and of course myself. Graceful.
12/28: Friday-
"Be open to what other people have to say this week, even if you don't agree. You might learn something."
Of course this was the last day that I was working at Radioshack. I had suggestions coming to me from just about every direction. My mom of course concerned that I wasn't going to be working 2 jobs anymore and be able to pay my bills. Nick and Heidi trying to be supportive and let me know that everything will work out. Just crazy that it was a weird timing for this message.
12/31: Monday-
"You will soon take a big step forward in a relationship that until now felt like it was moving backward."
Crazy thing about this message is I took a step forward in a few relationships that until now I felt were moving backwards. Of course I hoped the message was about Nick, he is one of my best guy friends but I feel like sometimes our friendship is being put on the back burner and it just sucks. At this time I had started talking more to Kylie. Her and I had been friends for a really long time and we moved in together with a few girls and it ended in disaster and a loss of a friend for about a year and a half. Kylie and I have started hanging out more often and it seems that our friendship is really getting to be as strong as it used to be. Kinda weird.
1/23: Wednesday-
"You'll have to point out someone's mistake, but do it gently so they don't get too defensive."
This message came to me yet again very randomly. Let me set this up for you. The friday before this message Nick had lost his job. Nick being one of my great friends doesn't really have the best coping skills. He drinks, a lot when hes stressed out and of course that is what he was going to do. His brother offered him a job in Omaha that would pay well and he would have a place to go. Instead he gets a job at the Ramada being a barback and doing setup for parties and conferences.
1/24: Thursday- "Stick with the plan. The temptation to be spontaneous today will not pay off."
Looking back at this day I really should have listened. My Original Plan: Go to my classes and head to Omaha! I had planned on asking a friend to deposit a check that was supposed to be coming and he was going to pick it up and put it in the bank. I had an interview set up for Friday morning and then I was going to hang out with my friends the rest of the weekend and return back to Kearney on Sunday. Not to say that just because I was spontaneous and did not listen thing would have gone differently but it couldnt have hurt. What Really Happened: I went to my classes, and put off going to Omaha until Friday. I waited for my check to come and it didn't so instead I just went and didnt have my friend deposit it. On Thursday I must have had quite the day because I changed my plan. I went to my first class and I had been kind of looking at a guy in the class. I have also been kind of eyeing a guy that works at Menards. As we got to talking in class that day the guy told me he had to go to work right after class. I asked him where he worked and he said "building materials...?" It clicked. It was the same guy!! Later my friend Nick came over to fix the bifold door to a closet that has been broken for a while and while he was here I pulled a string out of these pants I'd been wearing, apparently it was an important string because it ripped my pants from the bottom of the pocket to the waistband. My underwear and ass were in full view. I wasnt sure if it had been that way for a while or if he had noticed. (I talked to him the next day and he said he didnt notice). My weekend in Omaha was kind of confusing for me it was a huge reality check for me. Graduating in May and I'm not sure I'm making it how I need to. My interview was changed to Monday and went well. I feel like though that if I had my interview on Friday I may have had more fun over the weekend. Thats all.
The following messages were sent to me when I was on my way to and in Omaha:
1/25: Friday- "You're about to find out someone is all talk, so don't make any future plans with them!"
Not really sure who this message was talking about but while I was in Omaha I had asked my friend to go play laser tag or go to the bar with us and she wanted to go but kind of bailed at the last minute.
1/26: Saturday- "You swore you wouldn't be the one to say sorry. But if you want to mend things you might have to."
I think that these messages are telling me to tell someone sorry and the only person I can think that I need to 'mend' things with right now is nick. Do I tell him that things have been crazy lately and I'm sorry for being distant, even though it seems as though he is ignoring me?
1/27: Sunday- "It feels like you'll n ever be able to get over something you're dealing with now, but you'll snap back quickly."
I got this on the Sunday when I was in Omaha. I had just found out I had overdrafted my checking account and didnt really have money to get back to Kearney. This message almost seemed to come as some hope to me that everything would work out... they seem to be trying to work out.
1/28: Monday- "Just when you thought you knew everything about someone, they'll do something to really surprise you"
I'm still waiting for the surprise of someone... this was just yesterday so hopefully it's coming. I really hope its Nick because seriously lately he has been real distant and even more weird.
1/29: Tuesday- "If you don't say what you mean, no one will know what's in your heart. Be open and honest."
Sometimes I feel like these messages are speaking straight to me about Nick. Sometimes I feel like our friendship is drifting apart and he doesnt even care. I try to be distant with him but honestly I just need to talk to him and tell him what I'm feeling, if he's really my friend he'd understand. But how am I supposed to talk to him, really?
Thats of course all that I've received to this day. But I wanted to write about them because its crazy...
The weird thing is that its like the horoscope is telling my life right now. How that is possible I'm not sure and for me to receive one text every day for like a whole weekend straight was crazy to me. It also seems to be that I get these text messages when I feel like my head is scrambled the most. So crazy. I'll have to keep these updated. It seems like I had a lot more to say on the ones that were farther away, my reasoning for that is that the horoscopes had a chance to play themselves out, the most recent ones well I guess we'll see what happens.